Thursday, August 28, 2008

Recent Update

With the little time I have remaining of this night I suppose I will give a brief update of how the week has been going.

I've been to all of my classes but one so far......SCARY!!! I have 5 classes, 6 including choir, and they are all very involved classes. I won't say too much more other than the only way I will survive with a decent grade is by God's grace. I prayed for His help, have taken action by asking Mr. Profitt to help me in getting a schedule set up, and purposed in my heart that I will do my best. That's about all I can do, the Lord will do the rest.

On top of all that I am deeply involved in the General Studies Division as the President, helping in organizing a prayer meeting each week in the girl's dorm, working at the Vine St. Mission on Sundays, and hoping to exercise for a half hour each day. Oh, and making sure that I spend significant time in prayer and devotions. *pant, pant*

So that is what I've been faced with, and will have to learn how to deal with it.

On the flip side God has been working wonders in our revival services! I've been praying all week that the Holy Spirit would move among the students and cause an outbreak of surrender in their lives. Well He HAS moved and people HAVE responded. Praise God!!!

I thank Him also for how He has been helping me and working in my life. I couldn't imagine living without Him. Each day I still struggle with the pain I mentioned earlier, but I KNOW that God is with me. My prayer has been that every time I feel the empty void, that God would fill it with His presence. And He has!

Lord, I'm letting the world know that I love You, am committed to You and will do whatever you ask of me.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Thank God!

I just thank God for the counsel I can find in the people around me, specifically the staff and faculty here at GBS. I have been able to talk to so many people about a situation that I am going through and find the wisest most comforting advice. Talking to them has encouraged me a TON! It just goes to show that God cares for us so much that He would place these kinds of people in our lives.

The prayer meeting last night also helped me tremendously. I haven't been able to go to church for the past 3 weeks or so and I was thirsting and hungering for a service where I could express my love and praise to my Jesus. He certainly met my needs last night. Also, hearing countless testimonies, one after the other, how the Lord supplied and met needs just reminded me of the God I serve. I love Him so much, and I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am in the center of His will. He certainly is a wonderful, merciful Savior!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Home Sweet Home

I'm back! Oh does it ever feel good to be back. After 8 hours on the road my grandparents and I arrived to GBS at 7:15 on August 18.

Oh! Oh! Guess what!?! Ms. V called me Monday while I was on the road and asked me if I wanted the room with the I took it! How exciting! AND it is on the same floor as my friend Heather and her sister.

I have so much stuff! Most of it is unpacked already, now the tedious part is getting it all organized where I want it.

It has been really nice to see all of my friends again, the ones who are still here that is. Many of them have graduated or transferred. How sad :(

My grandparents left today around 11:00. It was nice of them to bring me down. I don't know how I would've gotten here if it weren't for them. I went out to lunch with Heather and her family and got back just in time to go to work. This year I am working for Mr. Profitt. I think it will be a lot of fun!

I went down to dinner around 5:00 and it was one of the hardest things for me to do since I got back to school. Trying to eat, and not having that certain someone sitting with me, was....well, depressing. Seeing that person on the other side of the cafeteria made it even worse. By the time I was done eating I could barely stand being there. I left and came straight to my room. Let's just say that the rest of the evening has been one of loneliness. I've never felt more alone... Oh how I wish I had someone to talk to right now.

Lord, please help me overcome these feelings of pain and find my comfort in You!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Streams in the Desert

Over the course of the summer I have been reading the Streams in the Desert devotional by L.B. Cowman. This book has meant so much to me! About a month ago a painful situation happened to me and I didn't have anywhere to turn but to God. Each day as I read this devotional it is amazing how God speaks so clearly to me through it. Here are some of my favorite excerpts and quotes:

Where would our faith be if not for the trials that test it; or patience, without anything to endure or experience and without tribulations to develop it? ~ selected

There are many blessings we will never receive until we are ready to pay the price of pain, for the path of suffering is the only way to reach them. ~ J. R. Miller

After waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised. ~ Hebrews 6:15

By faith Abraham...obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. ~ Hebrews 11:8

When a person who suffers reaches a point where he can be calm and carefree, inwardly smiling at his own suffering, and no longer asking God to be delivered from it, then the suffering has accomplished its blessed ministry, perseverence has " finish[ed] its work " (James 1:4), and the pain of the Crucifixion has begun to weave itself into a crown. He can now let the circumstances be what they may, and continue to seek only God and His will, with the calm assurance that He is causing everything in the universe , whether good or bad, past or present, to work "for the good of those who love Him" (Rom. 8:28). ~ from Soul Food

When God tests you, it is a good time to test Him by putting His promises to the test and then claiming from Him exactly what your trials have made necessary. ~ a simple old man

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. ~ Psalm 46:1

Our faith is always at its greatest point when we are in the middle of the trial, and confidence in the flesh will never endure testing. Fair-weather faith is not faith at all. ~ Charles Spurgeon

There are TONS more that I could write but I think you get the picture. The Lord has been so faithful to me. I thank Him for providing me with the comfort that I desperately need right now.

The rainbow comes only after the storm...

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

It's been a whole year and I am still here!

Hello everyone out there in blogger land! Yes, I am still here (for anyone who even cares). It has been well over a year since my last entry but I am still here.

A lot can happen in one year...(lol) a whole lot!!! Some I will tell you and some I will not. (Weird! That kind of sounded Dr. Seuss-ish.)

Anyways, what has happened in my life since March of 2007? Oh yes, I left off with telling you that my sister Kimberly was born. She has grown a lot since then and is now 17 months old. Ah! My parents are going to have their third child in December...a baby boy! That will be...exciting? My almost 3 year old brother has grown a lot since then as well. He can say a ton of words and makes the silliest faces I have ever seen a boy of that age do.

I successfully made it through my second year of college. What a relief! Throughout the course of this year I have also learned of what the Lord wants me to do as far as a career in life, at least generally. I have felt led to become a counselor, specifically a marriage counselor. As the months go by I develop a deeper passion for the occupation and a larger library of marriage/relationship books. I probably have over thirty of them and try to recommend them to all of my dating friends. Lol!

This summer has sort of drolled by. Without a job, money or a car...well, I'm sure you can imagine. I am so glad it is near the end. Only one more week until school starts back up again for yet another adventurous year of college. Oh how I do love the college life despite all of the classes and homework. And how I do miss all of my dear friends!

(These last two sentences sound so British. I just finished watching a 5 hour long BBC production of Pride and Prejudice. It's kind of taken affect... I absolutely LOVE that book! And for those of you who are wondering, no I did not watch it all in one sitting. It was split into two DVDs that I watched at separate times.)

Now, if my computer will load them I will post some pictures for you. Mostly of my two youngest siblings and then some recent pics of my mom's family. Dial-up, I beg of you, PLEASE load these pictures!!!

Here is a picture of me with my mom, step-dad, sister Rachel and step-brother Johnathan.

Rachel, Johnathan and me.

Rachel, my mom and me.

Me and my adorable brother Ronnie.

And here is my adorable sister Kimmie.

I wish I could post more pictures but unfortunately it takes WAY TOO LONG to load just one picture. Maybe after I get to school where there is high speed internet will I post more. Until then...