Monday, January 29, 2007

What goes on?

WOW!! It's been 11 days since my last blog. I have been extremely busy this past week that I just haven't had the time to sit down and write a good blog. Homework is killing me!!!!!

Let's see...where should I start to fill you all in?
Well, last Friday I went ice-skating with a small group of people. That was a lot of fun. Then Saturday I found my dress for the banquet. It is gorgeous! It's hard to explain so you'll just have to wait until the banquet to see it. I'll post some pics.
Monday I got sick with the cold. My throat was sore for two days and then it all went to my sinuses. It is the following Monday and I am still sick. I told my mother yesterday and you know what she said? "You need more sleep?" HA!! More sleep? Doesn't she know that every college student realizes they need more sleep than what they get? And doesn't she know that it just isn't possible to get more than 4 hours of sleep when you have Doctrine of Holiness? That is probably why I am still sick after 8 days. Yes, mothers know best.
The rest of the week was same old, same old.

This last Friday I went to Newport with Ryan, Brenda and Branden. We just hung out and did a whole lot of nothing.
Saturday Ryan and I went skiing! That was his first time and, as his teacher, I'd say he did excellent. I love to ski!!! I could go on and on about that, but perhaps I'll save that for another blog entry.

That pretty much leads up to today. I actually got up when my alarm went off this morning. I couldn't stay in bed even if I wanted to. I was sweating like a pig I tell ya! I don't understand the people who control the boilers here. Do they know that it just isn't healthy when you wake up dehydrated? It sure doesn't help those who are sick.

OH, OH!!! Guess what? Ok, you'll never guess. In two weeks I am going to meet Ryan's mom! I'm so excited!! Mr. Cravens is taking a group of Michiganders up with him on his way to Cedar Springs,MI. He'll be dropping Ryan, me, Joy and Joe off somewhere near Ryan's house I guess. I'll be staying with Joy at her house in Bird Lake which is about 45 minutes away from Ryan's. I can't wait!

Well, I need to get going here. I will really try to keep my blog updated but I'm not promising anything.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

A few original poems

I'm beginning to feel the aftereffects of my English Composition 102 and British Literature classes kicking in.
In English, we have been discussing poetry since the first day of class. As time goes on I can't tell whether I have acquired a deeper appreciation for poetry or a strong repulsion of it. Some of the poems are quite interesting, yet others would be better off as ashes. Either way, all of this observation of poetry has brought me back to the British Literature class I took in my junior year of high school. Each of us had to write a sonnet and a 20 line poem in iambic pentameter. I decided to share mine for anyone interested in reading them.
The 20 line poem we wrote had to be in iambic pentameter. We were studying The Canterbury Tales, and for an assignment we had to write about ourselves as if we were one of the travelers on their way to Canterbury. Here it is:

There was a girl who was so very sweet.
Much nicer than most anyone you'll meet.
Compassion and love was in her nature,
And her heart was her most tender feature.
Her hair was that of the silkiest brown.
Not ever on her face was there a frown.
In a crowd you would need to raise your hand,
For she was quite short as I understand.
In front of new friends she is somewhat shy.
Really though, she's lively I will not lie.
She tries her hardest to get her work done. (This no longer applies to me. Lol.)
For this people think she's not very fun.
But those who know her the best will tell you
Amusing and funny she is it's true.
She enjoys spending time with family,
Famous for her strange personality.
A good friend will say she's megalicious.
By that people might become suspicious.
If ever in need of a caring friend,
I guarantee, with you her time she'll spend.

The second poem is the sonnet.

"A Peddler's Rose"
A rose for thee this very hour
To show that thou are truly fine,
And bold for thee I still may cower,
But if thou wilt I'll make thee mine.
Your feelings too I must know,
Tell me now and I can try
To give thee all, I will bestow,
As a poor peddler I will not lie.
Please hear the plea of a lowly man,
It's eternal love to thee I'll give
If thou wilt consent I know we can,
Happily together we will live.
"Oh how can I to him tell,
That I've been waiting to hear that wedding bell?!"

Sunday, January 14, 2007

A meeting with the Almighty

God met with me today.

I went to the Scarlet Oaks Nursing Home ministry and Dan Hubble gave an excellent message about putting our trust in God. He opened by saying that if people afterwards go up to him and tell him what a wonderful speaker he is, then he has left the pulpit a failure. But, if they tell him that God met with them during the service then he has accomplished what he was supposed to do.

Yes, the Lord met with me today.

His sweet presence came and comforted me during the worship service, Mike, Michelle and Mrs. Miller's specials, the prayer, and Dan's message. It was something I really needed and longed for. Dan preached about trusting in the Lord and giving our cares to the unchanging God of yesterday, today and forever. I've always had a strong faith in God. It's one of my spiritual strongpoints I guess. I don't ever remember doubting Him about anything. It's such a joy to be able to give everything over to God to take care of. It reminds me of when I was a little girl, and how I never worried about a thing because my daddy was a big, strong man who could handle anything and seemed anyways. Lol.

Yes, my Comforter met with me today.

Yesterday, Satan kept bugging me about a certain issue, and I just had to keep rebuking him and call upon my Lord. During the service today, God just whispered in my ear, "Don't trip up now, keep your eyes on Me. Let Me take care of you and don't worry about a thing." Reassurance is a VERY comforting thing....especially when it comes directly from the mouth of God.

Yes, my Sustainer met with me today.

It is a privilege to serve a God who not only has the power to take care of our every need, but cares enough to take the time to reassure us that we are on the right track. I like the way someone mentioned it in their testimony one day. God isn't there just waiting to check us off his list and cast us away from Him. He's there cheering us on, waiting for us to make it to the finish line. He wants more than anyone for us to make it to Heaven. I love him with all of my heart; He is so precious to me.

Yes, Jesus met with me today.

Monday, January 8, 2007

God is so good!

Wow! What a week. Like many others, it's kind of hard trying to find time to blog with new classes, homework and revival starting. It's been good though.

Ok, I just have to say that God is so good. Ever since I got back from Christmas break I have felt His presence so near. He has answered so many prayers and made Himself so real to me. I have never had such a peace in my heart like I have right now. Over break there were some issues that were bothering me and I just put them in the Lord's hands for Him to handle. Since then He has blessed me innumerously. It simply amazes me that He would even care to have a relationship with a little nobody like me. I am determined to do His will no matter what, and I just want to be a channel that He can flow through that others might see Him in me.

This semester is going to be so wonderful!

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Update from yesterday

So today went a lot smoother than yesterday. I'm in a better, more cheerful mood.
Brenda has returned and hopefully things will go back to normal.

I really enjoyed my classes. I can't wait until things start rolling in my Introduction to the Philosophy of Music class. That should be interesting. And I am sooo excited about British Literature!! I absotively, posalutely love literature. This semester will be heavier for me, but I am determined to stay on top of my homework and get better grades.

This evening Kevin asked if I wanted to go skiing tonight since the resort would be closed tomorrow night. To backtrack, I got a silver pass for Perfect North and only went once so far. This weather is so terrible! Anyways, I thought about what my mom would say (or scream) to me if I told her that I only went skiing a couple times this season. (I had to borrow the $300 to be able to go.) After the mental picture of her getting extremely upset with me and blowing her top I decided to go. We got to the lodge, I went and changed into all of my gear, came out of the bathroom and it was downpouring.
I was NOT going to go skiing in the rain.
So I just stayed in the lodge. Meredith called me shortly thereafter because he was debating whether or not he should ski. When he found out that I was just going to sit there until Kevin was done skiing he said he would come to the lodge and keep me company. That was very kind of him. We had a fun time playing Uno and talking. Meredith is a cool guy. So my evening wasn't completely wasted afterall.

Well, it's almost 12:00 pm. I probably should get ready for bed.

Night all!

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

Just some random thoughts

I’m officially back to school for another semester. Hooray!!
Today was the first day back to work, tomorrow classes convene and Monday revival starts.
How exciting; new classes and new people to meet who are coming in for their first semester.

Christmas break was ok.
That’s all...ok.
It was nice to see my family, I guess. To be honest I wasn’t ready to go home. I was enjoying my independence here at school and having my own life. Like I said in an earlier blog, I felt like a stranger in my own land.

Brenda still isn’t back and all I feel as I sit here typing this blog is loneliness. I’m trying to stay positive and keep my mind on the things of God, but it’s hard when I feel so emotionally drained. There are so many things running through my head; about my parents, my sister, my family, my past, my future…and for the most part they aren’t very positive things.

You know, the mind is a powerful thing. It’s amazing that what you think about can affect you mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I love to think and day-dream. It’s one of my favorite hobbies! Unfortunately I waste a lot of my time doing just that, and hardly get anything accomplished. When I “wake up” I’m either in a more depressed mood than I was earlier (such as now) or a happier mood, I can feel sick to my stomach (like now), sometimes I feel like I’ve let God down, or that I’m right in the center of His will (and, actually, for the mood that I’m in I know I’m right where I aught to be with Him, I have no doubt about it). These are all huge results from just the little gears working in my head. Lol. Now there’s something, the psychology of thinking about thinking...very interesting.
Ughhh!!! I just feel like crawling in a hole somewhere, and I think the closest thing to that are my bed and the covers thereupon……but come on, that’s just absolutely ridiculous...isn’t it? Mental picture: me curled in a tiny ball, under my blankets, lost in my depressive thoughts. That’s kind of scary..."think positive things Megan."

Ok, since I don’t know what else to write I’ll end this very random blog with this quote,

“Words do not express thoughts very well. They always become a little different immediately after they are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish.”
~Hermann Hesse, Siddhartha